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occasional RANDOM thoughtz & intuitz from walking dead
jillianann:

In the studio today and remembered a day in New York I was having a bit of a melt down, it took me years to learn these were often defined as PTSD which I can usually keep balance through food sleep meditation and working out but a few days a month around the moon it’s as if things I didn’t remember or didn’t want to come roaring up I showed up one day to my vocal shaman and was on the verge of tears , use it he said use it all we all feel that we all hurt sometimes don’t be afraid of it cause when you open up even then you give others a way to feel and not feel alone , and so from then on I’ve tried to use it not be afraid of it not be afraid of sharing it even if its not all rainbows and sunshine it rains in life too and so today in using it rather then hiding under my covers Hoping it will dissolve on its own , expression of all emotions even the ones that aren’t “perfect or normal ” is way better to me then escaping the things that sometimes hurt allot #jillianann

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

♥

jillianann:

In the studio today and remembered a day in New York I was having a bit of a melt down, it took me years to learn these were often defined as PTSD which I can usually keep balance through food sleep meditation and working out but a few days a month around the moon it’s as if things I didn’t remember or didn’t want to come roaring up I showed up one day to my vocal shaman and was on the verge of tears , use it he said use it all we all feel that we all hurt sometimes don’t be afraid of it cause when you open up even then you give others a way to feel and not feel alone , and so from then on I’ve tried to use it not be afraid of it not be afraid of sharing it even if its not all rainbows and sunshine it rains in life too and so today in using it rather then hiding under my covers Hoping it will dissolve on its own , expression of all emotions even the ones that aren’t “perfect or normal ” is way better to me then escaping the things that sometimes hurt allot #jillianann

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

Bye sf land of lost lovers fog and songs never written (at San Francisco International Airport (SFO))

 
♥♫♥ "Goddess who Walks, Muse who can never die" ♥:)
 
                                    …NEW MUSIC…
♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/release/passes-away/1064465 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

Bye sf land of lost lovers fog and songs never written (at San Francisco International Airport (SFO))

 

♥♫♥ "Goddess who Walks, Muse who can never die" ♥:)

 

                                    …NEW MUSIC…

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/release/passes-away/1064465 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

Sleep depervation makes me feel blown open, I’m grateful for all the beautiful supportive people in my world at times I get challenged and feel a bit maxed out, a photographer who used to run a label was telling me that artist would do anything to be signed be anything , not me, how long have you been doing it he asked , since I was a kid making music that is , I’ve had a hard time with being a Commerical artist because for me music is sacred and part of my path . I only write lyrics I feel I believe in That come from my heart , I don’t want to sing about nothing why waste your time or mine , I don’t want to write or live just to make it , and sometimes it’s hard for me. Then he Said the music business is messed up people steal people lie people want to exploit you or put you down and then there are the not nice ones . In changing times where being in the top hundred of my genre since November means less then two weeks of groceries yet I’m happy to be anywhere people can find it , I release music for people money if it happens is nice but , I don’t want that to become the reason ill do it just like I don’t want to do anyone or be nice just in hopes of making it or make music just to make money even if I don’t like it or believe in it …. There are moments I get discouraged by people stealing stuff or use songs I made a there own with no credit or even percentage returned or distributors not paying or not responding and so on but then I remember the kids , who are inspired by the lyrics who have a place inside of them and then I don’t care anymore , about anything but making and playing music , the cards will fall as they do people will be angels or devils or all at once , but I can’t and don’t do what I do cause of peices of paper or names in bright letters , so with a new release I’m trying to reach people but its just to share and I wish there was a easier way to do it , but as of now the only path I see that doesn’t hurt my spirit or compromise my heart is the one I’m on so I’m sticking to it even when it’s challenging even when it’s amazing Sun or rain. Cause in the end it’s all I have and will have to give (at Rogue Valley International - Medford Airport (MFR))

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/release/passes-away/1064465 ♥♫♥
♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥
♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥
♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥
♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥
♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥
♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

Sleep depervation makes me feel blown open, I’m grateful for all the beautiful supportive people in my world at times I get challenged and feel a bit maxed out, a photographer who used to run a label was telling me that artist would do anything to be signed be anything , not me, how long have you been doing it he asked , since I was a kid making music that is , I’ve had a hard time with being a Commerical artist because for me music is sacred and part of my path . I only write lyrics I feel I believe in That come from my heart , I don’t want to sing about nothing why waste your time or mine , I don’t want to write or live just to make it , and sometimes it’s hard for me. Then he Said the music business is messed up people steal people lie people want to exploit you or put you down and then there are the not nice ones . In changing times where being in the top hundred of my genre since November means less then two weeks of groceries yet I’m happy to be anywhere people can find it , I release music for people money if it happens is nice but , I don’t want that to become the reason ill do it just like I don’t want to do anyone or be nice just in hopes of making it or make music just to make money even if I don’t like it or believe in it …. There are moments I get discouraged by people stealing stuff or use songs I made a there own with no credit or even percentage returned or distributors not paying or not responding and so on but then I remember the kids , who are inspired by the lyrics who have a place inside of them and then I don’t care anymore , about anything but making and playing music , the cards will fall as they do people will be angels or devils or all at once , but I can’t and don’t do what I do cause of peices of paper or names in bright letters , so with a new release I’m trying to reach people but its just to share and I wish there was a easier way to do it , but as of now the only path I see that doesn’t hurt my spirit or compromise my heart is the one I’m on so I’m sticking to it even when it’s challenging even when it’s amazing Sun or rain. Cause in the end it’s all I have and will have to give (at Rogue Valley International - Medford Airport (MFR))

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/release/passes-away/1064465 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

This makes me happy Krewella playing Quiet Riot at Ultra Music festival

♥♫♥Hah!!!, i told yz it was gonna be the Year of Jillian Ann♥:)

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

This makes me happy Krewella playing Quiet Riot at Ultra Music festival

♥♫♥Hah!!!, i told yz it was gonna be the Year of Jillian Ann:)

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

http://www.theuntz.com/jillian-ann-passes-away-phutureprimitive-remix-exclusive-premiere
Sultry and sophisticated, the primal rawness of Jillian Ann’s vocals have been popping up on our radar more and more frequently. The LA-based DJ and vocalist is in high demand by producers searching for a passionate power that most singers just don’t possess. Jillian Ann has gotten the royal treatment by a handful of artists on her latest, “Passes Away,” which drops April 8th on Simplify Recordings. Among remixes from Knight RiderZ, Stiletto, and Blunt Instrument, The Untz today premieres a monumental reworking by our old buddy Rain.
Phutureprimitive is obviously going to make a sensual bass anthem that much bigger—because that’s just what he does. Synths shimmer and dance across the surface of Jillian’s liquid cool vox. But then the drop shatters the ice and waves of bass crash upon the shore. In its wake, delicate tablas ripple out from the powerful climax that absolutely exudes sex.
This dominating remix of Jillian Ann’s passes away is perfectly timed with Phutureprimtive’s dual album release tour with ill-esha, which kicks off this week Raleigh, NC and then crisscrosses the entire country throughout the month of April. TheUntz.com is the official sponsor of this tour, so it gives us even more pleasure to present this wondrous remix to you today. Click the link below to win free pairs of tickets to any of the shows on the tour!
http://www.theuntz.com/phutureprimitive-and-ill-esha-dual-album-release-tour


♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

jillianann:

http://www.theuntz.com/jillian-ann-passes-away-phutureprimitive-remix-exclusive-premiere


Sultry and sophisticated, the primal rawness of Jillian Ann’s vocals have been popping up on our radar more and more frequently. The LA-based DJ and vocalist is in high demand by producers searching for a passionate power that most singers just don’t possess. Jillian Ann has gotten the royal treatment by a handful of artists on her latest, “Passes Away,” which drops April 8th on Simplify Recordings. Among remixes from Knight RiderZ, Stiletto, and Blunt Instrument, The Untz today premieres a monumental reworking by our old buddy Rain.

Phutureprimitive is obviously going to make a sensual bass anthem that much bigger—because that’s just what he does. Synths shimmer and dance across the surface of Jillian’s liquid cool vox. But then the drop shatters the ice and waves of bass crash upon the shore. In its wake, delicate tablas ripple out from the powerful climax that absolutely exudes sex.

This dominating remix of Jillian Ann’s passes away is perfectly timed with Phutureprimtive’s dual album release tour with ill-esha, which kicks off this week Raleigh, NC and then crisscrosses the entire country throughout the month of April. TheUntz.com is the official sponsor of this tour, so it gives us even more pleasure to present this wondrous remix to you today. Click the link below to win free pairs of tickets to any of the shows on the tour!

http://www.theuntz.com/phutureprimitive-and-ill-esha-dual-album-release-tour

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

Jillian Ann -JillianAnn.com: Ohio Gang Rape and Chilling Memories

jillianann:

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Recently I have been discussing this subject and reading about it allot considering the situation with the girl who was drugged and raped at a party and how the media has twisted it.

Reading about the girl it brought back chilling memories, of being 17 in a house where I was drugged and…

♥♫♥ i think that rapists & rapists of Children are an often overlooked natural resource,for example their kneecaps would make quaint decorative ashtrays, & what Femme wouldn’t lurve a skull candelabra with metal-storm embedded glittery finish, as for the rest, well, there’s wind-chimes, xylophones, fish-food, fertilizer, the list goes on, as the saying goes, “waste not, want not” >:( ps, you might also contemplate the ridiculousness of training males to hang in packs from childhood, it’s unnatural, it stunts their emotional & intellectual development & instills disrespect of Femmes & general misogyny from the word go, it leads to sexually developed (i refuse to call them adult or mature) males STILL hanging to-get-her in packs, whereas the natural state of an ADULT of the species is to be nomadic, not hanging in packs of undeveloped thugs ruling by mob instead of by sanity, i mean LOOK at your Planet, totally fubar BECAUSE you train males from Birth to hang in packs. :P

♥♫♥ now, on a Much More Beautiful Note…♥♫♥:)

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

Jillian Ann -JillianAnn.com: Diary March 21 Nightmares and Dancing

jillianann:

March 22

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Yesterday I wrote a song, I need to get back to a 100 percent before I can record when I swallow my ears still pop, the good news is I can breathe again for awhile there it was challenging. I have lots to do and part of me doesnt want to blog this morning , last night i had…

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/artist/artist_shows/352062 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

i dig this, i learned lucid dreaming decades ago, worked perfectly every sleep for about a decade then stopped, ie, i’v never dreamed since, until Listening to & Reading Jillian Ann’s Works a cupla years ago, still few & far between, but much better than never… but the prescience (pre-science :P, there’s that patriarchaic hegemony of language again, the inherent subconscious level brainwash disquieting inbuilt into the frankenstein’s monster of english “spelling”, eg, stag-nation, mans-laughter, them-asses, or, is psychotherapist bozotheclown’s bro…)

i like the prescience, mine is never dreamed though, it’s more as if i’m ahead of time, ie, you know that feeling when you think of someone for the 1st time in years & the phone rings & it’s them? it’s sort’v like that, except it’s everything, something i “hear” in my mind that then happens, not simple phone calls, i’m talking news that isn’t reported until the next day, or few days, or week, unpredictable news, not the stuff that’s bound to happen, totally unexpectable bizarre news, or sudden natural phenomenon, PLUS the things like phones ringing, or turning on a radio just before it plays the song you just thought of after not hearing for a decade, or opening a random book eyes shut, pointing finger to page then opening eyes to find the actual definition of something, or history of someone you’v “heard” the name of minutes before but found as a random jab at a page in a book you’v never seen before that’s actually about something entirely different, those sort of things, & earthquakes, i get lots of those, years ago i’d pick them on a map days beforehand, these days i just play my earthquake game, i raise up barefoot on tip-toes then drop my heels to make the concrete echo like thunder, then smirk & wait until it’s reported in a day or 3, depending on how far away the place is when i think it’s name… :)

Jillian Ann -JillianAnn.com: Diary March 21 2013

jillianann:

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March 21 2013

I have four cats now and am wondering if I should be juice fasting its the first day of spring the sun is shining they are discussing painting the house last night at Wi spa I realized I put a huge amount of pressure on myself, or rather my past conditioning puts a huge amount…

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♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)

Jillian Ann -JillianAnn.com: March 20 2012 My dreams have been intense some positive some fears...

jillianann:

March 20 2012

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My dreams have been intense some positive some fears coming up some random surreal realities which make me question if it is from a past life. In my reality there is lots to do and writing used to really help me focus, this blog was a meditation then I became too “busy” to write…

this seems to have been written by someone else, ie, it doesn’t “read” like Her usual style At All… 

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♥♫♥ http://www.beatport.com/artist/jillian-ann/171427 ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.reverbnation.com/jillianann ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://jillianann.bandcamp.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://www.djjillianann.com/ ♥♫♥

♥♫♥ http://rvrb.fm/Z90h3i  ♥♫♥:)